Driving

Driving in Kuala Lumpur needs a lot of patience as sometimes the traffic is heavy or an encounter with a maniac driver.

I have been driving on the road for two months. It has not been easy as I am new on the road. However, one thing for sure, when comes to driving, a lot of Malaysians, in particular those in Kuala Lumpur are not tolerant of new drivers, like me.

Although I have sticked a "P" sign on my car but some drivers still bully me on the road. So, are we, malaysians, a bunch of road bullies? Yeah I drive slowly on the slow lane and if the driver of another car think he can drive faster, please drive on the fast lane and dont follow me from behind. That driver may find me annoying and I also find him to be very very annoying. Maybe, a bit not rite in the brain and mind. Huh, if that driver thinks he can drive fast on the road, wait for the speed trap to capture his car photo. That will serve him right.

On a brighter side, life is moving very fast and new year will be here soon in less than two months. Another bright new year ahead.

A lot decisions are pending as I cannot make up my mind. Yes, I am undecisive in certain things in life. Maybe, as I grow older, I am wary of making mistakes. So I take a long time to decide on certain things. Anyway, I have to make a decision on a major issue by end of this month. Hope I will make the right decision.

My Hope

Hope. I hope that everthing will be smooth sailing for me for the rest of the months in 2012. I also hope that all my investments will bear fruits and brings me some extra pocket monies to spend as I really need monies nowadays.

Happy. I want to be happy all the times. I try to be positive and lead a happy life. Life is not without its ups and downs. How we lead our life depends on how we handle matters affecting our life. If we let certain matter affects us, this will make us unhappy. Whether happy or unhappy, we still need to live our life so why don't we face our life positively and be happy all the times. Even if we are sad, we be sad for a while and don't let it be long and therefore affect our emotions.

Healthy. Without good health, we will not be happy even we have all riches in the world. So it is important we eat well to maintain a good health. With good health, we will be able to do a lot of things in life.

Have fun. Lastly, we must have fun at times to make ourself happy. Not to worry about any matters but just to have some fun.

Having said the above, I feel that we must be positive and happy so that our friends and relatives will feel the same when they are with us.

Road Bullies

Annoyed. In Kuala Lumpur, there are a lot of road bullies. They come in two wheels drivers and blue taxi drivers. These blue taxi drivers which the foreigners/tourists from other countries normally take, are really road bullies. Been driving for the past two weeks and I observed that they drove like maniac. No wonder, the locals dont take this kind of taxi which is expensive too. The two wheels drivers are worst. They comes from all directions and squeeze into the empty space just to get ahead to the traffic light although there is a traffic jam and the cars are not moving at all!

Puzzled. The way these drivers drove their car are beyond my understanding. Where are they rushing to? Don't they have proper time management? Don't they know they are the menace of the road? Shame on them.

Disappointed. I have put a "P" sign at the front and back of my car to indicate that I am new to the road. Worse than before as the other car drivers seem to have "fun" to bully me and my car. I don't expect special treatment but the least is they don't bully me and understand that I don't drive that fast. Anyway, how to drive fast in the traffic jam?

The way some Malaysian drive during traffic jam are like maniac and God, please bless them before they cause an accident to happen. These are the drivers who not only endanger their life but also the life of other drivers. There are a lack of gentlemen on the road of Kuala Lumpur.

New Car

Happy. At last my new car is coming tomorrow. It is not silver but a black little Viva car. So my car is black. Yeah, sleek and black. A handsome little car.

Fear. The thought of driving again leaves fear in my mind as it has bee a long time since I last drove. Which is, more than 10 years ago.

Happy and Fear, are in me now. On one hand, happy and on the other hand, fear. So lets wait tomorrow, when I will be driving my little car for the first time. Guess, will be nervous and heart beating fast like meeting my first love.

Hope, everything will be smooth tomorrow and I will drive my little car to reach home safely. Very anxious and excited to drive my car. Sigh, such a contradicting feeling fighting in me.

I dare to drive, yes and will be ready to face the traffic jam. So little Viva, let's drive home.

My little Viva

Happy. My new small Car, Viva will be here before end of the month. Excited and waiting patiently for its arrival.

Told my brother about the Car and yes, we quarrel. He said that I am wasting money and as usual, he is not understanding or supportive about it. Whatever he said dont bother me as I already made up my mind to drive again. Although, my bro is always at my side supporting me during my long illness, he is getting to be ......... Nowadays, whatever I buy, he also make noise. If he is reading this, please take note I am using MY money and not your money, please dont tell me what I should do and not to do.

Moving ahead, the little Viva is a silver coloured car. So end of this month, I will be the proud owner of a Viva car. Hopefully, I have not forget how to drive a car. Yes, It has been ten years since I drove a car. So hoping everything will be smooth sailing for me.

At last, I dont have to take the train to work. Yes, I will miss the taking the train.

Love and Hate

Love and Hate is just a thin line between one another. One can easily cross over to hate if the love turns sour. Or can hate cross over and changed to love. Yes, it can. Sometimes, the person we hate is the person we ends up loving the most.

Love. Love can easily turns to hate when the man or lady one loves betray his or her love. That is when it can turns to hate and sometimes deep hatred. Has I ever hate a person so much that I feel like whacking him. Yes, I did once before. That man is totally hopeless. Do not know what I see in him at all in the first place. He better pray hard that he did not ever see me again as I may just whack him in the public. LOL.

Hate. Can hate turns to love? I personally experience disliking a man and then turning to hate. In the end, I end up liking him. Love him, I am not sure on this now. At that moment,  maybe I did love him. With his (silent) pursuing me strongly, I did end up liking him. Guess, I am a big softie at heart.

However, we are not together now as I guess whatever feelings we have for one another is not strong enough to withstand all the difficulties that come along. We end up apart from each other now.

Weekends

Best. Weekends are always the best way to laze around the house. Did some cleaning and went for facial on Saturday. Sunday is the time to do some housework and relax, perhaps eat a bit more.

Saturday. Woke up early and did some cleaning and then go for facial. The facial is quite nice and refreshing. It actually lift the sagging part of the face and it is expensive. But the results is amazing.
After that, I went for dinner with my friend/buddy at TGIF. The buffalo wings were yummy and I drank some coffee. My buddy then said, "Maybe next week we go for Japanese and eat some udon mee." There was one Japanese Restaurant which sells tasty udon mee.

Sunday. Did some housework and calculate my budget for the month. Sigh. Not enough for the month so have to withdraw from my savings. After that, eat my favourite fried mee, yes indulge in some good fattening food.

Budgetting.  I really have to do some budgetting and dont spend so much money. Every month also broke. Not a good sign if expenditure is more than income. Still thinking of getting a car too. More expenses!!! With the inflation rate so high and the increment so low, I felt that my company is taking advantage of me

Love, Success & Money

Wonderful. If I can have love, success and money at one time, that will be great. It is difficult to have all these three things at one time as generally, they dont come at the same time. Although, sometimes, they do come at the same time but it is rare.

Love, it is important to have someone to love me or I love him. Success, it is vital to have success in life whether career or other small little things I do. Money, yes,  how can I survive in this world without money. Although, health is the most important things in life to me but money also played an important role too. But if I will to select one, I will definitely select health.

This afternoon, as I was walking with my friends after lunch, my friend was saying, "If you see things you like, you should buy. Afterall, money earned is to be spent." Yes, I do that and I am happy. So please, my brother, if you are reading this, don't tell me to curb my spending when I can still spend.

Now, I need all the three things, love, success and money together. Can I have them, please? How nice, if they come in one package at the same time.

Buying a car

Serious. Buying a car is decision I am making right now. Should I buy or not? Having a car will facilitate my shopping and running errands, The interest rate is quite low now. To me, this is something major as I need to think or consider the big question, "Can I still drive?" after more than 10 years of not driving.

Unsure. After tossing and turning in my bed for the past few nights, I still have yet to make a decision whether to buy or not to buy a car. Sigh, by tonite I will make a decision on this. Other matters relating to work, I can make decision fast but not anything relating to my personal life. I like to think this and that. Think too much cause inaction. In the end, most of the time, I end up not doing it at all.

Talk about shopping, I just love to shop and every time I go to shopping complex, I sure come back with some new clothes or cosmetic or any goods that I feel is bargain. Sigh, not good as I already spent more than half of my salary after one week of getting my pay. I honestly do not know what to do with the remaining days of this month without much money left. Yeah, use my savings again. Sigh.

Anyway, having a car and driving again will be great. So most likely, I will buy a new small little car. Just good for me as I need it to get me around town only.

Diet

Difficult. It is difficult to go on diet when you just love the food or eating. I have been on a diet for the past month and glad to say I managed to lose some pounds. It is tough to say no, no to my favourite food and I seldom eat rice nowadays. Rice which used to be my daily food now has disappeared. Sometimes I go for weeks without rice.

Tough. When I am on diet and I see yummy yummy food, it is tough to resist the temptations. However, I have been doing that for the past whole month. So far, I have been successful although sometimes I do give in to temptations.

How do I resist delicious food when I am out with friends. Sigh! It is tough and I do sometimes take those delicious food. Then, it was back to dieting again. Which is one of the reason, my weight did not reduce drastically but rather slowly over the month.

Honestly, I am doing it to be healthy and also to wear nice clothes. My sis in law did comment once on my big clothes. Sigh, not that I want to wear those clothes but I have no choice.

Mistake

Mistake. In this world, who does not make mistake. Everyone will make a mistake in their life at least more than once. Can we rectify the mistake? Will the apology that comes after the mistake be accepted if the mistake hurt another person?

Most of the time, we found that rarely people accept the apologies that comes after the mistake we made. Yes, sometimes I also do not accept the apologies for the damage is done or the hurt is there already. Can the hurt be erased? If there is such eraser, please let me have it.

Once I tried to apologise for a mistake I made ages ago. That person was very hurt by my mistake so all he said, "dont mention again as it was in the past and you are rubbing salt in the wound." That is what he said after more than ten years later which I only apologised, yes after ten years. Apparently, he was still sore by my mistake. Sigh!

Although, I should not mention this again but I still do is because I could not comprehend why he felt this way after all this year. If I am him, I dont bother about it anymore or totally forget it.

I was hurt too but over the years, I have learned to forgive and forget.

Daily life

Boring. My daily life is getting boring. No excitement. Just the normal day to day routine. Woke up, have breakfast, go to work, work and work, go home, watch tv and sleep. That is a day in my life. Really a boring life. Is lack of excitement good for me? I dont really know as it is calm and peaceful everyday. Except for busy busy working day, nearly every day for the last two weeks after I came back from Bali. My life is basically the same every day. Hmmmmm, boring.

Lonely. As age is catching up with me, I started to feel lonely. Although, I do go out with my buddy and good friends. There are times, I wish for someone to share my joy, happiness and sadness. Maybe, I should try to drive a car again so I can go here and there. With so many robberies, is it safe for a female to drive the car or to park the car at shopping complex.

Busy. Work is busy as usual. Working hard to earn more money for my holidays. Moving forward, I am eagerly and happily waiting for October to come. That is when I will be going to Sydney for holidays.

Does love last?

Does love last? Will a person loves another person to eternity?

I have friends who told me that if her husband remained at her side until the old age, she will consider her husband as loved her. There was a case of one uncle who cried when saw her wife came back after a long trip to China. He missed his wife very much. So touching.

Recently, I read on the website, a good statement on love. It says, "If a person loves another person because of her beauty, he may leave her one day but if he loves her heart, he will not leave her. So true! For true love, a person will not mind how the other person looks but love her wholeheartedly for whoever she is. She may be an old lady with wrinkles but the love will still be there.

There is a high profile love story of an actress and actor who recently end their relationship after 8 years of being together. After 8 years, they announced recently that they have ended their relationship.

Generally, a couple will tolerate the faults of the other party in the initial stage of a relationship but after many years, they will start to feel irritated by such behaviour or attitude. That is when the relationship heads towards the end of the tunnel.

So love, does it last?

Hobbies

Fantastic. Travelling is my favourite hobby. I love travelling. Visiting a country and experiencing its culture is just a wonderful experience. However, I normally after a few years, tend to forget the places I have been to. That was when I looked at the photo and said, "Ah, these are the beautiful places I have been to."



Beside travelling, I like listening to music, all kinds of music. At night, I switch on the radio and sleeps. Soft music playing while I am sleeping. Just nice and definitely gives me a good night sleep.



I was down at one point of my life and I listen to prayers (in the form of songs/music) everyday. It snaps me out of feeling down and unhappy. In times of sadness, one should always turn to the almighty GOD. God is always there for us without fail. Pray hard and God will answer the prayers.


Back to travelling, I am hoping to visit New Zealand and USA in the future before my legs give up on me and I cannot walk properly. After that, I will start my travelling in Malaysia. Maybe, next year will visit Hokkaido in July to see Lavendar.



How I wish I can travel every month to different places!

Modern Society

Open. The modern society now is open and has a lot more freedom than our grandfather's day. In those days, one hardly see couple hugging in the street, train or at shopping complex.

Now is so common to see couple hugging practically everywhere in the public places. Even teenagers do their kissing and hugging at train station. Just last week, I witnessed such scene of teenagers hugging and kissing on the train. She stroked him and leaned onto his body while standing. He also stroked her and hugged her. And they are barely fifteen years old.

When I was fifteen years old, I was busy with my studies with my mum watching over me like a hawk. I hardly seen the opposite sex and then when I attend tuition at the age of 17 years old, I started to know boys.

Those were the conservative side of the society back then. Now, one can see couples hugging and kissing at any public places.

Luckily, I don't have children or I will be pretty worried.

Depression

Depression. I have a few friends who suffered depression. From what I heard from them, the illness comes visiting when one is sad or depressed over an incident or something that had happened to her. A few of my friends who had depression went to see doctor and was cured after six months to a year depending on how the person coped with the illness or how serious is the illness.


In life, if one is happy, all illness will not come knocking at the door. One should not dwell on things which make that person unhappy. Look forward to the future as it has yet to happen and who knows, it might bring a surprise or present to us. If something makes us unhappy, we should try to forget it and move on in our life leaving it behind in the past.


When my friend was having depression, I tried to call her as often as I could and give her emotional support. We have since after her illness become best buddy.


Good friends need not be many but a few will do as these are friends who will not betray and be with me when I am sad or down. Most important, they are always there when I need them.

Work at office

Cooling. Yesterday was raining in the morning. The weather was very nice. Feel like sleeping during working hours. The office today is also very cold. My hands are so cold now.

Today, had meeting in the morning. Yes, busy busy, busy. My General Manager was in the meeting with one of the directors, head of internal audit and me. From the way, he spoke, he don't expect me to stay in the Company long. Instead of thinking ways to retain me, he talked as if he was happy to see me leave the Company. This man is really a terrible person. However, my director indirectly praised me for the good work I produced. At least someone appreciates the work I am doing in the office.

Tomorrow, will be Saturday. Will be busy in the morning, afternoon and nite too. Whole day also busy with my personal things. Happy to be busy with personal things and not work for once.

One of my long time friends called me for watching movie and to celebrate my belated birthday. But, I am busy every weekend until mid of August. So the movie and celebration are put on hold for now.

Hard Work

Busy. Today, am busy busy until now. Managed to complete some work. Tomorrow will also be another busy day.

Hopefully, end of this year, I will be properly rewarded. Just wishful thinking. Most likely, will be given a small sum of bonus, if any or a tiny increment, as usual. Sigh.

Although, I am busy, I went to do shopping during lunch time. Yes, I like to shop. My brother already said, "Sis, who can afford to marry you with your shopping habit". Well, I earn money so I should spent it too in the way I want to. But I do shop too much. I know but old habits die hard.

Maybe, I should try to curb my spendings. If not, I will be broke soon. LOL.

Free at last

Very happy. Today is the happiest day of my life. Something happens and it dawns on me that I am free at last. I no longer have to keep my promises which I made anymore. Yeah, I am free. What a celebration!!!.

If I am not in the office, I will break into a dance, dance around a bit. I no longer have to worry anymore. At last I am free.

This of course brings a chapter in my life closes and a door to that also closes. I can now look forward to something new in the future, something bright to start with and a lot of laughters.

I am proud of myself. I did it and I can move forward in my life again.

Taking the train

Happy. I am happy today as I have managed to lose the pounds I gained recently. Hopefully, I reached my ideal weight in a few months time.

Taking the train is a fun ride every morning if there are not so many people. While in the train, normally I will observe the behaviour of the people which is interesting to note. Some will be busy playing with their handphone or ipad while some will be cutting their nails in the train. That needs some balancing and that lady cut her nails while standing in the train with a lot of people watching her.

Then there is one old couple who always accompanies their daughter to work. Their daughter normally wear spagetti strap mini skirt. Talk about being sexy. There are times I see ladies wearing high heels balancing in the train.

I remember once in a country I visited there is this couple who did french kissing in the train. Well, If one is far away from home with nobody to recognise/know that person, it is not surprising to do french kissing.

Taking the train is definitely relaxing for me. A joy ride, indeed.