Annoying matter

This whole week is one annoying week. Being the pressed by An, the monster. Asking me to do things which I am not trained to do. An, the monster is my boss. He as usual think of the money and not the staff. He does not know this but the staff really hates him for the way he takes advantage of them. Asking them to do things which they do not know. It is not even in my letter of employment to do these kinds of duties. He is the worst boss I ever work for. I have been working for more than 15 years and never once I said the boss is the worst boss I ever work for. He takes the crown.

Have been looking for a job for the past one year and cannot get. So I am working at a place I hate. Doing a job I hate. Pissed off by the monster. And according to the horoscope, this is supposed to be the good year for those born under my sign. What crap.

I also discover that I can't deal much with the tension since I was sick years ago. Let me strike a lottery and I will not work again. This illness has hampered a great career. If not for the illness, I can go far in my career for I am very good in my work. It is fate. What can one do. To fight the illness is tough. It is annoying to deal with this illness throughout my late twenties until my late thirties. It just will not go away. I guess it will remain with me until the day I go to heaven.

Sometimes I feel having a loved one will do me good. Maybe cure my illness faster as there is someone to love me, care for me and be there for me. Which makes me wonder which is more difficult, to have someone to love or finding a new job.