Old love

It has been a while since i last fell in love. What is love? I do not know what it is. Love is when one care for somebody and miss that special someone if he or she is not around. Like I miss my dad. I guess that is love.

My first love, I have totally forgotten him until now. If one asks me what I see in him. I can say this, I do not know what I see in him at that time as I feel I will not like someone like him now. Guess the taste in men also change. He is a selfish and stingy man.

I do not remember much of the time he and I spend together. The only memorable one is the time he had a quarrel with me and left me alone at the car park. He just left me there and drove off. At that time it is nine at night. I walked home from the shopping centre as I lived nearby. I cried when I reached home. I cried and cried. Come to think of it, that is real stupid. Should have dumped him there and then. But no, I forgave him. We broke off later on but not because of that incident. The feelings he had for me and the feelings I had for him has faded.

There are times that I bumped into him. I no longer recognise him but my brother told me that it is him. I have totally delete this person from my mind. I am rather surprised at my ability to forget a person.

A few years back I was in love with this person. He gets the crown for being a nasty one. He hurt my feelings, my career and my health. As usual I have forgotten how he looks. My special ability. I am disappointed in the way he handled the relationship. I guess he did not love me much as one would not hurt the person one is in love with. It is good that I realise what kind of person he is than to know later.

I hope the next time I fall in love, it will be someone who really loves me for who I am. The one who care for me and be with me whenever I need him. The special someone who will place me first in his life.